Roses Tulips and Tibbetts: The wonderful thing about tiggers!

Tiggers are wonderful things!

Carolina June’s first love! Lol I’ve always loved Winnie the Pooh and long before I was pregnant I used to think of a Winnie the Pooh nursery... and baby shower... and first birthday! I decided against the nursery because I wanted something she could grow with longer and the theme for the baby shower I didn’t have was going to be Steel Magnolias complete with an armadillo cake.lol & I have LOTS of ideas for her first birthday. Three that are my favorite but I can’t decide. Winnie the Pooh is definitely in the running and the more she expresses love for tigger and all the movies the more I think that’s what we’re gonna go with!

Did my genetics take any part of this baby? I don’t think so. I was only maybe 3 months here and still had wayyy more hair than my poor baby lol

Here’s her man clone

This girl has been waking up so much at night!!

Like 4-6 times! When she had gotten to waking up only once or twice not that long ago. Here is her pitiful cry face

But she loves to play with dada! It’s funny she knows daddy is better at playtime and mommy is better at nurturing!

Ok this night we were supposed to go to meet Dane at his parents house but she fell asleep. She hadn’t napped all day so I told them to eat without me I didn’t want to wake her. That was like 4:45 and she slept until 8!!! Uhhhh are you gonna be up all night or what? Lol well I thought to myself when Dane was holding “she looks bigger!” And then dane a couple minutes later said that exact thing!! We decided she grew while she was getting all that good sleep! Right before my very eyes.

I had to fix this up for her because she just wants to be a big girl and sit! She does pretty good by herself but I don’t feel comfortable walking away while she’s sitting up yet and let’s face it- mommy’s need to walk away to do stuff sometimes lol

She looks so dang grown up here!

And here I decided she looks like a flirty feline!

I am baby! Hear me ROAR!

Just moving all over and getting my chunky legs stuck places!

She was watching tv here...Pooh bear of course!

Winnie the Pooh Winnie the Pooh...tubby little cubby all stuffed with fluff he’s Winnie the Pooh, willy nilly silly ol bear!

Just hanging around...waiting on daddy to come home!

Monday night I put her to bed and got up, we heard her make a fussy noise and then it got real quiet which is unusual! Went in to check on her and she was fast asleep on her tummy!

This was eight something and she slept until 1 AM!! Fed her put her back on her tummy and she slept until 6 AM!! And fed again and slept until 8! Are you kidding me?! I think we have a tummy sleeper!

The next morning she was so happy and tee teed all over my clean sheets! So I put her on the floor with no diaper bc I wanted to yank the sheets off before it soaked through to my mattress and she tinkled on the carpet too!

Yawn....sorry mommy!

OKAY LOOK AT THESE ROLLS!

All from my milk! Makes the challenging times and our journey so worth it when i see her little body being nourished and growing. I’m so proud of how far we’ve come breastfeeding! It’s such a sacrifice at times but like I said so worth it knowing it’s doing her body good

Wednesday was Carolina June’s 6 month check and my emotions were BIG that day. They wanted her to get a flu shot and I didn’t know what to do. I wanted to turn to my husband and ask him but because of covid im not allowed to have him or any other support person with me. Carolina June is 21 pounds 13 ounces and 27 inches long. She is in the 99th percentile for weight which means out of 100 babies she weighs more than 99 of them hahaha.

First time mom with a pandemic princess pitty party!

Why wasn’t it ok for my husband to go to my dr appointments when I was pregnant? Why is it STILL not ok for him to come to our daughters appointments? We made her together and we should make decisions together. I know a lot of moms go to appointments alone and I know Dane wouldn’t have been able to go to every appointment...life is like that sometimes. But one of the advantages to doing everything “right” is that we planned for this chapter of life.

We:

Dated, got engaged, moved in together and I MOVED BACK OUT because God convicted us. We got married and then I moved back in. We waited until we had insurance and a stable home and a “forever job”. & when we got to that point in our marriage we started trying to get pregnant. & then we were 1 in 8 couples who couldn’t get pregnant. & then we were 1 in 4 who lost a baby. So when I say it doesn’t seem “fair” that he couldn’t come to my appointments. It doesn’t seem “fair” that I couldn’t have a baby shower. It doesn’t seem “fair” that our parents couldn’t come to the hospital. It doesn’t seem “fair” that I had to sit in the pediatricians office alone wondering if our child should get the flu shot. It doesn’t seem FAIR to me that I can’t do all the things I imagined doing with her.

But God. He knew what he was doing. When Dane and I grazed the same halls unknowingly in high school. When we started dating. When he asked me to marry him SO SOON YALL....like he just knew I’d say yes. When we made it official with God and our family as our witness. When we started trying for years. When we grieved our first child so openly and rawly because God put it on our hearts and we received some very hurtful comments over it. But God told me I DO HAVE A DAUGHTER IN HEAVEN AND HER NAME IS ZOEY JOY.

& God told me I was pregnant again - the.day.we.conceived.

God knew ALL THAT TIME that we would have a daughter in 2020 and even though His plan was not my plan...y’all I’ll be damned if he didn’t know JUST what he was doing when he pieced together Carolina June. She’s half Dane. Half me. All HER. & I couldn’t have imagined a child more perfect. 2021 doesn’t feel any different than 2020. There’s even more uncertainty than before. But I’m certain God is on the throne. I’m certain I still won’t be able to grasp how He entrusted us to be parents to the most perfect little girl. I’m certain Carolina June will continue to bless us and we will continue to be in awe of everything she learns this year.