Meet the teacher

 

I can’t even with this big girl!

Ok so walking into the school I had a horrible feeling in my stomach. I was looking around at this gigantic school and holding my irreplaceable child’s little hand. All I could think is “she’s too little. How can she possibly be here without her mommy?!” I wanted to cry. 

We walked into her classroom and she jumped out of my arms and played and looked around the classroom saying wow! Look at that! And even said “I did it!” While playing with a toy and clapped for herself. The teacher ate her up. 

It made me feel better to see her be so comfortable and happy. But she’s my whole heart and like I said…she’s irreplaceable to me but not to the world and that scares me. How I can I leave her?! 

Door hanger for her teacher 

Ready or not my baby is starting school in less than a week! 

I prayed for this and then I let myself drown in it. 

It is absolutely possible when you’re in the thick of motherhood to feel joy and like you need a life boat within 2 minutes of each other. 

I am grieving the end of summer with Carolina June. It’s hard to believe that her “babyhood” full of slow mornings and no commitments is over. It was a MAGICAL 3 years. I will certainly be boohooing with her gone to prek but I am thrilled to death for my baby to find her words. I could cry thinking of all the wonderful things she must have to say! 

Here’s to being present and soaking up the chaos. 

The devil absolutely came after me and stole my joy and I didn’t even realize it was happening. I prayed for these crazy moments and I almost missed them. Moms are an EASY target we have a million things going on and our mental state is hanging on by a thread…don’t think for a second the enemy won’t use that as a playfield.