Dear JuneBug

 A letter to my JuneBug before she becomes a big sister. 

Dear JuneBug, 

One day you’ll laugh about this but your daddy and I accidentally turned your whole world upside down! Haha. I hope by time you’re reading this you’ve grown to love being a big sis and forgiven us. Because of course with you be my first baby I’m terrified of how you will react and worried that we will have ruined your life by making you a big sister! You run things around here and are pretty accustomed to your life and the way we cater to you and jump whenever you need us. 

You were my rainbow baby, we prayed for you. Family and friends prayed for you. & God blessed the broken road that EVENTUALLY lead us straight to you. I guess I imagined if we ever had another baby you’d be older and I would have had more time with you. But mommy and daddy trust Gods plan and Beau was in it. 

If we learned anything waiting for you it was this: God gives & takes away. He does not cause pain without allowing something new to be born. He has made everything beautiful in HIS time. & I can’t imagine loving you anymore at any other time…having you during a pandemic and then Trump / Biden’s time as president  was interesting to say the least but I fully believe that you were born for such a time as this. We are right where God wants us to be. I pray you love your baby brother. I pray I can still be the mommy I want to be to you. I know this much, God handpicked and delivered you to me and I will not love you any less once Beau is here. Things will be bumpy. Trying. Challenging. Wonderful. Exciting. Bittersweet. Exhausting. Heartwarming. I will not love you any less! You came into this world and not only gave me perspective, a new found strength and purpose but you  made all my dreams come true. My little Cinderella June. “A dream is a wish your heart makes” “no matter how your heart is grieving if you keep on believing the dream that you wish will come true” “even miracles take a little time”

I have loved all of our snuggles awaiting brothers arrival and my heart hurts and bursts in ways I can’t put into words…I’m ready to get rid of this big ole belly and watch you blossom into a big sis and also be able to fully enjoy our days and snuggles together again without being weighed down and exhausted! 

37 weeks

 

Craving: lots of fruit. I ate a whole bag of black grapes by myself in about 3 days! 

Not loving: suuppperrr itchy belly! I’ve got like a little rash and bumps. I got the same thing with Carolina and it thankfully didn’t scar my belly. 

Feeling: like I need to get everything ready because ready or not here he comes…SOON! I put together his bouncer and kick and play piano that came in the mail and it was a super surreal moment! I’ve got some bottles in case we need some at first. I’ve been trying to declutter and organize to make this transition as easy as possible. I’ve got one last load of laundry to do for him 

I got his cart ready for late nights in our room! We had a changing table with Carolina and a basket on the bedside table but I’m hoping this rolling cart makes things a little easier 

The cutest little blue truck night light that aunt Katy found at Cracker Barrel! She was sweet enough to call and see if I wanted her to pick it up for me since it matches his room perfectly! 

Beau Michael is CHEEKY! I didn’t expect anything less. He is weighing 6lb 10oz which I think must be off but not much longer until we find out ourselves. They said he’s about the 50 percentile although his head measured 39 weeks! He looked perfectly healthy! 

37 weeks and 5 days: ready to get this bowling ball out of my body! Supposedly 6-8 dates a day will help lol 

36 weeks

 NINE MONTHS 

Safe to say Beau Michael is out of womb! 

bittersweet ending. I am so ready to have him but what I didn’t know with Carolina is how fast his first year is gonna go. I cannot wait to watch all the big things you do this year son. I will always cherish the moments you lived in my belly.

Craving: watermelon 

Hating: heartburn 

Beau was measuring a week ahead again this week! And mama gained 3 pounds. I blame the leftover cake from JuneBugs party lol I was talking to dr faro about all the pressure I feel in my pelvic area and that baby moves feel like he’s gonna break my water some nights they are so intense! She laughed and said us moms always say “hey this kid is like about to come out of me.” And then she checks them and she’s like “this kid is in your tonsils they aren’t coming out” haha. we are scheduled for a c section for 

June 13, 2022 

Almost time 💙 getting bags ready and his baby book came in the mail. It’s the same brand I had for Carolina June I’m obsessed! The Dino cover is a cover for the boppy lounger. I took a lot of pics of Carolina laying on it and figured I didn’t want Beau laying on a pink lounger for all his pics lol 

And soooo exciting is the scrapbook paper for his foot print when he’s born!! 

Mawmaw and Nana Nutmeg came over to babysit and it was MawMaws birthday! So we had to set up a little breakfast for her. We got her favorite kolaches the jolly peno poppers from morning kolache and Carolina June made her a handprint sun! For her bday we gave her the “you are my sunshine” charm from James Avery. My moms fave colors are purple and yellow so that’s what we went with for our little theme. 

35 weeks

 

Don’t eat watermelon seeds! 

Feeling: like I need to slow way down now that we got through her bday party! I kept telling myself just make it through the party. I’ve been having what feels like Charlie horses in my thighs but i think it’s actually a hormone your body releases in the 3rd trimester that relaxes all your ligaments to prepare for labor birth. anyways the pain stops me in my tracks and there’s been times I would have just fallen down had there not been something to hold onto! 

Craving: Pringle’s, berries and omg the watermelon was so good from her party! 

Beau was alllll the way to my right and in my ribs the other day. 

I decided to try snacks to get him to move because all the other things like emptying my bladder weren’t working! 

At one point it looked like he had flipped sideways like a football! 

It’s a tradition now 💗🧡 got daddy the same hat but a different color with the kids names embroidered on each side. I did this for him the day before Carolina June was born as his birthday present!