Dear JuneBug

 A letter to my JuneBug before she becomes a big sister. 

Dear JuneBug, 

One day you’ll laugh about this but your daddy and I accidentally turned your whole world upside down! Haha. I hope by time you’re reading this you’ve grown to love being a big sis and forgiven us. Because of course with you be my first baby I’m terrified of how you will react and worried that we will have ruined your life by making you a big sister! You run things around here and are pretty accustomed to your life and the way we cater to you and jump whenever you need us. 

You were my rainbow baby, we prayed for you. Family and friends prayed for you. & God blessed the broken road that EVENTUALLY lead us straight to you. I guess I imagined if we ever had another baby you’d be older and I would have had more time with you. But mommy and daddy trust Gods plan and Beau was in it. 

If we learned anything waiting for you it was this: God gives & takes away. He does not cause pain without allowing something new to be born. He has made everything beautiful in HIS time. & I can’t imagine loving you anymore at any other time…having you during a pandemic and then Trump / Biden’s time as president  was interesting to say the least but I fully believe that you were born for such a time as this. We are right where God wants us to be. I pray you love your baby brother. I pray I can still be the mommy I want to be to you. I know this much, God handpicked and delivered you to me and I will not love you any less once Beau is here. Things will be bumpy. Trying. Challenging. Wonderful. Exciting. Bittersweet. Exhausting. Heartwarming. I will not love you any less! You came into this world and not only gave me perspective, a new found strength and purpose but you  made all my dreams come true. My little Cinderella June. “A dream is a wish your heart makes” “no matter how your heart is grieving if you keep on believing the dream that you wish will come true” “even miracles take a little time”

I have loved all of our snuggles awaiting brothers arrival and my heart hurts and bursts in ways I can’t put into words…I’m ready to get rid of this big ole belly and watch you blossom into a big sis and also be able to fully enjoy our days and snuggles together again without being weighed down and exhausted!