So this is what it’s like to live with my heart wandering around outside my body? So this is love? So God loves me even more than I love her? So God loves HER even more than I love her? Saturday April 10th was the most terrifying moment of my life and the only people present were me, God and Carolina June. God kept his hand on our little girl and kept her safe. Baby’s first ambulance ride....It was the craziest thing. She was pulling up on the couch standing and fell on her bottom...like she always does because she's learning to stand. And she sounded like she was spitting up and gagging so I went over to her and she was red in the face and foam coming out of her mouth I was like what in the world?! So I picked her up she cleared her throat and seemed ok I called Dane. While on the phone with Dane she started having an episode worse than before she couldn't catch her breath and I thought she was aspirating on spit up! I hung up on Dane and called 911 at 10:55 and they got there at 11:07! Thank GOD for having his hand on her and that she was breathing. I flipped her over my lap and patted her back and a bunch of saliva/foam came out and in the pile I saw half of a leaf! Who knows if it was whole to begin with?! Her lungs sounded clear and everything but she wouldn't cry laugh or take a deep breath and she was making grunty gargle raspy noises so I opted to transport by ambulance so she would be prioritized at ER. Mommy intuition is something FIERCE. In all my life I’ve never felt anything like it, our Carly girl is perfect, although she has aspiration in her lungs which will resolve on its own and we will follow up with pediatrician Monday. I knew my baby was not 100%...I am not glad that I was right because I wish there was nothing wrong with her but I AM glad that I trusted my instincts because we do need to follow up, she could end up with pneumonia if it didn’t resolve on its own! Choking is scary. The sight/sound of MY child choking was paralyzing. I’m holding my June bug tight and thanking God for protecting her!

She absolutely could not stay awake! Her little eyes were so heavy. 

She did not even move when I got her out of the car when Danes parents dropped us off! She was done for! I 100% could have laid her down and she would have stayed asleep but after a traumatic day I needed her more than she needed me! 

Look at this long hair!!! 

& last but not least..the little leaf that could have changed my life and shattered my being! Tears rolling down my cheeks just thinking about it while typing this.