Can we normalize not having an instant bond or overwhelming love for your newborn baby?! Because I didn’t have that with either one of my kids. With Carolina I wasn’t worried or upset I knew we would bond and HELLO I am absolutely smitten by her and worship the ground she walks on. So much that up until today (Beau will be a week old tomorrow) I had no idea how I would ever love him the way I love her. I have cried like a lunatic everyday and been absent from friends and social media because I was too easily triggered. But then tonight. For the first time I nursed him in his room in the same glider we had for Carolina June and he fell asleep in my arms. I was studying his little face and remembering Carolina at this age and they look so similar. & somehow all at once I realized I have a boy version of Carolina June. A version of my husband who is by the way a saint and the best father to my babies and husband to me. When I started thinking about the son he will raise…well this is the moment I fell head over heels for a little boy…. and I had to document it because quite frankly I didn’t know when it would come or how I deeply I would fall when it happened 💙🚂🧸⚾️🏈