365 days / 12 months / ONE PERFECT YEAR
Of loving Carolina June
My big one year old
A year ago today you changed life as we knew it, our reason for living and our entire souls… all with one single breath. When you were born and my mom asked me “is she everything you ever dreamt of?” I responded with “I like her!” Don’t get me wrong, I was fascinated by you. In awe of all your tiny features. I loved you and would have protected you at all costs. I may not have felt instantly bonded but oh my goodness...the love caught up with me and when it did it took over me! It’s been a year full of overwhelming emotions. So many sleepless nights. more joy than I’ve ever known. We have laughed together and cried together. I feel as if I have aged 10 years having to sit back and watch you learn the world around you because all I want to do is keep you safe. Lots of “firsts” and sadly “lasts”. You never know when the last time will be that your sweet newborn makes that funny noise that you loved so much. The last time they will fit in the cradle you cherish and spent many anxious nights imagining them in it awaiting their arrival. The last time they get to wear your favorite sleeper because they grew overnight or the last time you will kiss the top of their sweet bald head. I didn’t know it was the last time when it happened. I am blessed in so many ways that God entrusted me to be your mommy and also feel unworthy of your preciousness! I prayed fiercely for you and God told me things like “not yet” “just wait” “in MY perfect timing I the Lord will make it happen” and the Lord made everything beautiful in its time just like he promised. I feel great privilege being your mommy & having waited so long for such a precious gift. You are life’s most precious gift Carolina June. It is absolutely unbelievable to me that the little human I couldn’t wait to have and the little girl I have gotten to know and cant imagine life without is already ONE. Time is a thief, everyone tells you don’t blink and you listen and you try to hold on to all the little moments and you take the pictures but you can’t truly grasp how fast it goes until you experience it first hand. So now I have first hand experience at how delicate and fleeting life is, how the little moments are actually the big ones, and what it feels like to have your whole heart wandering around outside of your body. We love everything about you. Your sweet curls, your infectious laugh, the sparkle in your eyes, your rosey cheeks and button nose, the little gap between your teeth when you smile, the way you use your one finger to explore the world around you, and most of all your bucket load of personality and sweet snuggly YOU! Happy First Birthday my love.
Carolina June weighs 25 pounds and is 30 inches tall. She has 7 teeth working on number 8! She can say mama and dada. She can shake her head no. She can crawl, stand, WALK, clap and play peekaboo. She still loves Dairy Queen and I am grateful for a successful year of breastfeeding, and nourishing her body and mind. (I was so determined to breastfeed and we got off to a rocky start, we pumped 24/7 for 3 months until she started latching and my milk supply was so confused I had to wean from the pump until she was 6 months old.) She is so smart, I can see her mind at work everyday trying to problem solve, plotting her next mess or remembering where she saw me hide something from her. She has SO much personality. She cracks us up daily because she is so funny and because she is full of SASS. When she was born I made myself, my mom my nana and my mother in law shirts to wear for her homecoming that said “thank heaven for little girls” and had cookies made for the hospital that said “sugar spice & everything nice” that has described my year getting to know Carolina June…thank HEAVEN for little girls and sugar spice and everything nice…THATS what little girls are made of 💗🧁 “Thursday’s child has far to go”
Happy Birthday to you! Birthday girl woke up happy and rooting around the bed she put her little booty right next to my head and let out some birthday toots and giggles! She’s so sweet we had to sing it twice!
Birthday girl knew it was a special day! She’s being so sweet and funny and playing so nice…love her bed head!
She woke up a little after 6 excited for her special day so she took her very first nap as a big one year old before 11 AM.
We had an exciting day planned to go get a cookie cake for daddy since it’s his birthday too and build a birthday bear while we were at the mall because she had a gift card from aunt sassy! We got all birthday festive when she woke up from her nap 🧁💗
Forever trying to get her to take a picture with me lol
Here is her birthday bear! they did a special birthday heart ceremony where we waved the heart in the air to get all the good energy, rubbed the heart on her ears so we would always listen to what our heart says, on our nose so we would always know what was going on, her side so she would know we are always by her side, her toes so she would be totally cool as Carolina and then we kissed the heart and made a birthday wish and they sewed it up in the bear. We then accessorized, named her “June” and made her a birth certificate! It was such a sweet process and I appreciated them taking the time to do the ceremony with my baby girl even if she didn’t know what was going on!
Stuffing the bear
Sewing up the heart!
Getting her dressed
Her birth certificate:
Taking her home!
Strolling the mall!
She got lots of compliments on being covered in bows! From her head to her pants to her toes. Okay mommy I’m ready for some Dairy Queen shopping is hard work!
Daddy’s cookie cake:
Since we already had Carolinas birthday cake at her party I got this one just for daddy so he doesn’t feel like his special day is just cancelled lol he had to work late and said he may not be home until we were already asleep so we FaceTimed again to say happy birthday
She took the longest nap it is hard work adopting a bear and being one year old! She was having sweet birthday dreams too I heard her snort and looked down and she was smiling HUGE I mean I could see all her teeth. I didn’t catch it but I got this little grin
We went to my moms and I ate a taco salad over there because Dane wasn’t supposed to be home and then as I was leaving I had a missed call and he was on his way home! I was still glad to see my parents for her bday! Time to celebrate my loves! 27 & 1!
& now, our last monthly milestone pic! I hate endings to good things but I know my adventure of loving Carolina June has just begun and there are definitely more good times to be had.
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