We have a WALKER!!! Sunday night we were eating dinner and Carolina June unexpectedly stood in the middle of the floor and took FIVE steps!!
Dada can put together her four wheeler she got for her bday
Little piggy
The next morning…OH MY GOODNESS. We were both fit to be tied. She was being so difficult especially about taking medicine. If I force it she throws up but she won’t take it willingly I have tried ALL the tricks. I decided she’s gonna get what she gets when she gets it and hopefully it works because what we’re doing is not working. I was ready for her to take a nap by 9:00. I can’t tell if she doesn’t feel good or is throwing tantrums but it seems like tantrums because as long as she is doing whatever she wants she is fine. Finally a little before noon she fell asleep….sweet when she’s sleeping
But by 12:30 she was standing up crying. I don’t take naps but I’m so exhausted by the past week that I was actually laying in bed trying to sleep when she woke up. She is having tummy trouble from the antibiotic so now we’re giving her antibiotics 3x a day, Motrin and Tylenol as needed and probiotics once a day. It is testing my sanity. She got back in bed with me and went back to sleep for a good while. I honestly don’t have anymore pics from yesterday because there was nothing cute or fun going on in this household lol Dane did put together her princess tent that my mom got her, she was confused so Dane put a toy in there and she went in after it but was very cautious.
We laid her down in her bed at bedtime and she was up before either of us fell asleep. I felt drunk Tuesday morning because she slept like a newborn and just wanted to nurse all night. I felt like I never even slept. At 7 when she woke up again I was like ok let’s just get up because I didn’t want to nurse her again and didn’t even feel like going back to sleep. That didn’t sit well with her. I tried sneaking antibiotics in water- no luck
For two hours she cried over everything including taking her medicine I forced the Tylenol thinking her mood must be pain related. Tell my why I caught her eating dog food! She refuses her bubblegum flavored meds but enjoyed every bite of dog food. She was just sucking and chewing on it she was so mad when I got a piece out of her mouth. I took this opportunity to put probiotics in a glass of water and rinse her mouth with it! She got most of it I hope. Example of her hot and cold mood, here’s her playing peekaboo for a min after screaming over who knows what
By 9:30 I had already called the pedi and made an appt for 1:45. When they asked me her symptoms I said I think she’s possessed lol I need them to look in her ear and see if it’s ok or not. I think the antibiotics should have helped by now. Or maybe they can look in her mouth and see if she’s cutting more teeth. The one I know about has cut through already on the bottom left. I also want to talk about her tummy trouble. Maybe they can shorten course of treatment if ear is better to at least eliminate that stress. I just need to know if she’s in a bad mood and going through some stage or if she’s in pain. I tricked her into taking the antibiotics by giving her a frozen waffle every time she would take a bite I would put the syringe in her mouth. She got most of it
At first Carolina made me look crazy at the dr by being smiley for the receptionist and nurse- seriously this is not the baby I have at home!
She loved playing with the paper on the table…temporarily
But then she insisted mommy hold her…
&then even mommy holding her was not okay!
And then I swayed and walked shushed until finally…
Dr Faron came in and I suggested she look in her ears while she was sleeping because then hopefully she could get a good look. We talked for a minute first about her symptoms and the last couple days and her course of treatment from the other dr and then even though she was hesitant she looked in her ears (she was scared she would wake up and jolt her head into the ear thingy but I promised to hold her head) it went really well she was able to get a good look at both ears without her waking. She said the right ear she could tell was not perfect but was on the road to recovery left ear looked good. Continue the antibiotics but we could do a higher dose twice a day instead of the lower one three times a day. I guess we will try since it’s so hard to give it to her…I started crying when she told me she shouldn’t be feeling ear pain at this point just because it meant I didn’t know “why” Carolina is acting this way! I’m glad her ears don’t hurt but it would have been a good explanation. I told her I’m to my breaking point and Carolina is using me as a human pacifier and waking like a newborn so I never get a break. I wake up feeling drunk and irritable from not sleeping the night before and it makes me have a lot less patience for all the fits throughout the day…rather they are because she is in pain or because she’s just a baby going through a developmental change mommy’s can only take so much! But then I feel guilty because she’s just a baby and it isn’t her fault that something doesn’t feel right to her. So anyways she handed me a box of tissues and politely listened hahaha. I quickly dried it up and realized she’s my daughters pediatrician and I am not the patient. She said pain was likely teething that they normally come in pairs so if she just got the bottom left she is probably getting bottom right.
My little babe slept all the way to the car and I’m pretty sure she went back to sleep after I buckled her she kept nodding her head and had heavy eyes. She didn’t start fussing until we were very close to home thankfully. Nana nutmeg came over which was a good distraction for mommy and baby! And her laughter is the best dose of medicine around ❤️ She brought Carolina two cute little outfits that are so soft and she brought me an adorable tall coffee cup that I am super excited to use when I’m stumbling to the kitchen tomorrow morning lol Carolina is really into peekaboo and putting clothes over her head (trying to anyways) I’m not sure which she was doing here but those are Danes underwear and she thought it was really funny.
I pretty much laid on the floor and let her do whatever as long as she was entertained
That night when trying ALL THE TRICKS to give her her medicine Dane walked in the kitchen to say something and she was standing in front of the sink and somehow just fell back and hit her head on the tile! I was so angry with myself that she fell right in front of me and I couldn’t stop it and tile floors scare me. Well then Dane with good intentions said in the future I should keep her on carpet so if she fell back it wouldn’t be so bad. OMG I FREAKED OUT. I am already stressed and exhausted and feeling like the worst mom and totally defeated that I can’t medicate her and he made me feel like it was my fault she hit her head now. He didn’t mean it that way but at this point I had had enough mommy guilt and was sobbing as Carolina splashed around in her sink bath and barely making sense with my words. I only say this because one day when she grows up if im in heaven when she is a new mom I want her to read this and know when she is struggling that it is okay and that we struggled too but we loved her more than anything and it was all worth it. The good times and the joy she brings us far outweighs the bad! And the bad isn’t her fault.
That night to add to my emotional mess I got in my chest which holds all the things I am keeping for her when she has a baby and omg
We loved polka dot puppy clearly. It was my all time favorite.
The next morning my baby woke up smiling and herself praise God. She was playing dress up and peekaboo
I also got her to take her meds without any catastrophe praise God for that too. We went shopping and to Cracker Barrel for lunch with Danes mom but not before our coffee lol
My little piggy thinks she is so big. lol bib is because I was trying to give her Tylenol and I didn’t want red to stain her outfit
All ready!
Playing peekaboo
Her was so sleepy when we got home
I just love her hair swoop and eyelashes and her lips and nose and everything!! Dada changing her diaper lol had to document that
She was having a great day making messes! She was in a really good mood just didn’t want a nap!
Finally about 3 I laid down with her…last nap as an 11 month old because tomorrow this baby girl turns ONE
Chicken & Gilpin’s came over to see her best friend
These two are literally two hoots and a holler together.
Next bath she takes she’ll be one year old!
It’s so surreal because I remember when I was getting ready to have her last year the day before and day of all I could say was “the next time we do this we’ll have a baby!” Or “this is the last time we’ll do this just the two of us”
Happy Birthday Eve, sugar.
“For this child we prayed and the Lord granted us what we asked of Him”
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